Today is July 22, 2009. Two years ago my son Keagen Ty Phillips passed away. I still remember thinking that it was not good that a specialist was wanting to talk to Katarina and I. I still think about having to sign the papers. And watching as the nurses and staff cleared the NICU. The other parents were asked to leave. We (Katarina, Me, and our parents) got to say goodbye to Keagen. A little bit later he was gone. It was hard for me losing my son. It was hard for my parents losing their grandson. But I think that it was especially hard on Katarina and her family see on July 22, 2009 they lost Keagen and Katarina lost a grandma. Some people don't realize the wave of emotions that was going through Katarina and I. anxious excitment as Keagen was being born. Fear and confusion as we found out there was complications. Anger, exaustion, peace, frustration, saddness, and every other emotion as we found out that he had died.
Keagen died on a sunday. We had his viewing wednesday afternoon. At the evening service Katarina played the piano and I led the songs. Thrusday morning was his funeral. Following that we loaded up in Jimmy's pickup and headed to Kansas. Katarina's Grandma's funeral was Friday morning. Then Saturday morning we went to Denver to see Luke and Rebecca (my sister) married.
Proverbs 3:5-6 - Trust in the lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways adknowledge him and he shall direct thy path. God will take care of you. Regardless of what comes up in your life "God still thinks he's God." God cares for you, and he will guide you.
Through it all, God has been with us. Caring for us, comforting us, watching over us. We don't understand why it happened the way it did, but we do trust in the Lord. We Trust him to keep his promise that he will never leave us or forsake us. We Trust him to direct our path and guide us through this maze of life. We Trust that God is still in Control. - David
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